The yogger had a great quote today, "If you're serious about training, everything you do and everything you put in your body is intended to be performance enhancing." The rules of what is allowed and what isn't don't seem based in a black and white, right and wrong type of world.
Christian admits to EPO boosting his HCT from 44 to 51 which isn't terribly far off from the boost I saw, a change from a baseline at 43 to almost 48.
I guess it all seems arbitrary to me. Luckily I'm not good enough to waste too much time thinking about the athlete I could be with a little bit of "help" since it still wouldn't be anything of note. And as I age, I feel like my life has shifted, it has become more about the method than the outcomes, however fatalistic that may seem.
Maybe I am a little sad. Sad that racing doesn't seem to make much sense to me. Sad that something I once loved with such a passion seems so unimportant to me now. But that doesn't have anything to do with Christian Hesch or EPO.